Back in college, we had learnt in psychology that as life went, most people regret things they didn't do rather than those they did.
The roads not taken, the choices not made, the people they allowed to go out of their lives rather than taking their hands and asking them to stay.
I have my own morbid version of this exercise, where I think of what life could've been like had I chosen different. I daydream about where I would've been today had I not gone to ad school, had I not taken advertising, had I not started this blog, had I held on to certain people - where would I be, who would I be and who would I be with?
Some of the answers leave me wondering. Perhaps I could've had a better life, more fulfilling, a better paying, more satisfying job where I don't have to blog to get my writing kicks. Maybe I wouldn't have met Rook and would today be still single or some completely unimaginable Mister's missus.
In an alternate Universe, maybe these possibilities still exist.
And then, I think of the flipside. Where life would be sadder, darker, lonelier, where nothing and nobody could help shake off the feeling that I'm standing on a precipice where a single word, thought or deed can push me over the edge.
The funny part is, I've already stood there twice before, in this very Universe itself, so I do know what that's like.
So, in retrospect, what life my choices have led me to seems to be one to be profoundly grateful for. I don't know if the same holds true for you. But as someone who gets practically daily updates of how bad a life I could've had, let me just say this: enjoy what you have, because trust me, it could be SO much worse than it is.
The roads not taken, the choices not made, the people they allowed to go out of their lives rather than taking their hands and asking them to stay.
I have my own morbid version of this exercise, where I think of what life could've been like had I chosen different. I daydream about where I would've been today had I not gone to ad school, had I not taken advertising, had I not started this blog, had I held on to certain people - where would I be, who would I be and who would I be with?
Some of the answers leave me wondering. Perhaps I could've had a better life, more fulfilling, a better paying, more satisfying job where I don't have to blog to get my writing kicks. Maybe I wouldn't have met Rook and would today be still single or some completely unimaginable Mister's missus.
In an alternate Universe, maybe these possibilities still exist.
And then, I think of the flipside. Where life would be sadder, darker, lonelier, where nothing and nobody could help shake off the feeling that I'm standing on a precipice where a single word, thought or deed can push me over the edge.
The funny part is, I've already stood there twice before, in this very Universe itself, so I do know what that's like.
So, in retrospect, what life my choices have led me to seems to be one to be profoundly grateful for. I don't know if the same holds true for you. But as someone who gets practically daily updates of how bad a life I could've had, let me just say this: enjoy what you have, because trust me, it could be SO much worse than it is.
2 comments:
Hear hear. :)
Noted.
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